Today, I had a truly extraordinary experience. I rang Leaf just before lunch. He came on the line and said gaily 'Hello, darling, how lovely to hear from you!' A lump rose in my throat. We then had a good conversation with him sounding almost normal, just a little slow to respond. My Leaf was … Continue reading EVER THE OPTIMIST
Category: Personal
DON’T BLAME THE MESSENGER…
Our marriage has reached a stage where all I can do is wait. Not for anything specific, at least not for anything specific that I'm at present prepared to divulge, but because the situation for both Leaf and I has no immediate resolution. So far, after the operation, he's doing well, although I have not … Continue reading DON’T BLAME THE MESSENGER…
THE OP. AT LAST!
Dear Friends – I'm back! It's been a busy time on the hospital front. I was called to Lannemezan in a hurry – no nothing wrong, but an appointment for Leaf with the anaesthetist prior to his op. which had now been scheduled for the fourth of March. Leaf was pretty comatose, lying on the … Continue reading THE OP. AT LAST!
BACK IN THE WAITING ROOM
A non week, a flat week, a finally getting around to sorting odd socks week. I’m banned again from visiting Leaf. For how long, they don’t know. I ring him most days but apart from his initial greeting ‘Hello sweetheart’, he’s unable to carry out anything resembling a conversation, usually forgets I’m on the end of the line, … Continue reading BACK IN THE WAITING ROOM
WHEN FATE TAKES OVER
As we know, being a carer for someone living with AD, can be absolutely exhausting. For me, the physical side is taken care of but the emotional roller-coaster is relentless. These last few days, I’ve been feeling numb. Maybe one of the reasons numbness was created was to help us process emotion at a deeper level. To keep thought … Continue reading WHEN FATE TAKES OVER
‘D’ DAY ONE
Here we are, almost at the end of January already and next week is our personal ‘D’ Day. Well, one of several, possibly. We’ll see. Last Monday’s visit didn’t get off to a good start. Leaf was led in stooped and sobbing. Tearlessly sobbing. I took his hands – the nurse didn’t stop me – and tried to get him … Continue reading ‘D’ DAY ONE
DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
Here we are into January, for many of us, the most depressing month of the year, when Spring and Summer seem so far away and it’s difficult to summon up the energy to get all those ‘need to’ jobs done and out of the way. For the most part, I’m a reasonably active person – not … Continue reading DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
Just back from an invigorating walk with Monty. Thick snow is draped across the countryside and that matt grey sky that means more could be on its way, almost blended with the fields on the horizon. Actually it was lovely, so quiet and still. As soon as it felt safe, I left Monty off the lead and he … Continue reading I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
Over Christmas, I was unable to see Leaf due, presumably, to skeleton staffing. It’s likely the patients in the dementia wing wouldn’t even notice anyway. They’re probably unaware of the time of year despite the Christmas decorations which were in evidence but out of reach. Leaf is one of many who tend to ‘pick’ at things, pull … Continue reading A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
LOOKING AHEAD
Christmas came and went, in a flash like it usually does. I was lucky to have invites from neighbours which lifted my spirits no end. I’m not a great fan of Christmas but am very aware of the pains of separation from family which so many others will be feeling too. ALMOST! I saw Leaf last tuesday. He … Continue reading LOOKING AHEAD
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