Here we are, almost at the end of January already and next week is our personal ‘D’ Day. Well, one of several, possibly. We’ll see. Last Monday’s visit didn’t get off to a good start. Leaf was led in stooped and sobbing. Tearlessly sobbing. I took his hands – the nurse didn’t stop me – and tried to get him … Continue reading ‘D’ DAY ONE
Category: General
DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
Here we are into January, for many of us, the most depressing month of the year, when Spring and Summer seem so far away and it’s difficult to summon up the energy to get all those ‘need to’ jobs done and out of the way. For the most part, I’m a reasonably active person – not … Continue reading DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
Just back from an invigorating walk with Monty. Thick snow is draped across the countryside and that matt grey sky that means more could be on its way, almost blended with the fields on the horizon. Actually it was lovely, so quiet and still. As soon as it felt safe, I left Monty off the lead and he … Continue reading I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
Over Christmas, I was unable to see Leaf due, presumably, to skeleton staffing. It’s likely the patients in the dementia wing wouldn’t even notice anyway. They’re probably unaware of the time of year despite the Christmas decorations which were in evidence but out of reach. Leaf is one of many who tend to ‘pick’ at things, pull … Continue reading A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
LOOKING AHEAD
Christmas came and went, in a flash like it usually does. I was lucky to have invites from neighbours which lifted my spirits no end. I’m not a great fan of Christmas but am very aware of the pains of separation from family which so many others will be feeling too. ALMOST! I saw Leaf last tuesday. He … Continue reading LOOKING AHEAD
NOT EVERYONE IS CENSORED
This week I’m looking forward and gathering my energies for what could be a bit of a struggle. I wrote to the gerontologist to chase up my appointment with the urologist but was informed that I wouldn’t be able to see him/her until the end of January at the earliest! No surprise really – I guess … Continue reading NOT EVERYONE IS CENSORED
THAT BIG RESPONSIBILITY
I find myself, not for the first time, shouldering a huge responsibility. I have to make Leaf’s decisions for him. Thank goodness he and I have never shied away from uncomfortable life truths, particularly that we all have to die. Obvious, I know, but it’s surprising how many people act as though they’re immortal, as if, somehow, it … Continue reading THAT BIG RESPONSIBILITY
GUILTY ….
Getting old can be unbearable. It’s a time when we simply have to be realistic, deeply uncomfortable though that may be. Our bodies are giving out and we have to face the fact that we, or our partner if we have one, may not live much longer. There is every likelihood that, like me, many readers will … Continue reading GUILTY ….
TIME FOR PLAN B
One again, it’s been another chaotic week however I’ve found time to get my thoughts together. I am sleeping well and that’s a big bonus. I get a daily walk with Monty which blows the cobwebs away and I’m cooking myself decent suppers. But what of Leaf? NOTHING LIKE A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP The 45-minute, masked, no touching … Continue reading TIME FOR PLAN B
TURNED AWAY
When I went to the hospital ten days ago, laden with goodies and massage oil, I was horrified to be turned away. I was told I couldn’t see Leaf because the ward was ‘locked’ to visitors. Well! I hit the roof, made a real exhibition of myself probably. The nurse got rather agitated and said … Continue reading TURNED AWAY
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