Getting old can be unbearable. It’s a time when we simply have to be realistic, deeply uncomfortable though that may be. Our bodies are giving out and we have to face the fact that we, or our partner if we have one, may not live much longer. There is every likelihood that, like me, many readers will … Continue reading GUILTY ….
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RULING OUR LIVES
It’s with enormous sadness and fury that I’m forced to go along with the prevailing lockdown restrictions. My husband is a prisoner and I’m not allowed to see him. I know that thousands of family members across the world have been or are, like me, suffering from the lockdowns and their loved ones are suffering even … Continue reading RULING OUR LIVES
TIME FOR PLAN B
One again, it’s been another chaotic week however I’ve found time to get my thoughts together. I am sleeping well and that’s a big bonus. I get a daily walk with Monty which blows the cobwebs away and I’m cooking myself decent suppers. But what of Leaf? NOTHING LIKE A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP The 45-minute, masked, no touching … Continue reading TIME FOR PLAN B
TURNED AWAY
When I went to the hospital ten days ago, laden with goodies and massage oil, I was horrified to be turned away. I was told I couldn’t see Leaf because the ward was ‘locked’ to visitors. Well! I hit the roof, made a real exhibition of myself probably. The nurse got rather agitated and said … Continue reading TURNED AWAY
A DIFFICULT TRANSITION
It’s easy to lose track of the days when you’re retired and even more easy if you’re living with a mountain of paperwork that has to be waded through. Day in, day out, filling in forms, scanning, copying endless documents. Nothing unusual about that – but it has to be the most boring occupation and one of … Continue reading A DIFFICULT TRANSITION
THE PENULTIMATE CHAPTER
(with photos from our scrapbook of memories) Leaf and I have moved on to another era. I’m calling it The Penultimate Chapter because I’m hopeful the ultimate one will be more serene. EARLY DAYS BARCELONA 2001 Ten days ago, I cracked. Our doctor referred to what happened to me as a Burn-Out. My body simply took over, I … Continue reading THE PENULTIMATE CHAPTER
THE LATEST CRAZE
(this week’s post is not about Leaf and I. It’s been an eventful week about which I'm not yet ready to write. So here’s some ammo for those who feel like commenting, should I say venting!) What is the latest craze? I call it Trump-bashing. The world is in chaos, untold millions are suffering, we’re walking around … Continue reading THE LATEST CRAZE
CROSSING FINGERS
We’ve weathered this week’s storm – of one sort or another - as Leaf continues to do the craziest of stuff: emptying drawers, pulling things apart, refusing to take his prostate medicaments or go to bed and making a mess with his food. Two letters waiting to go the post were opened and contents removed – … Continue reading CROSSING FINGERS
SURRENDER
It’s been a crazy week, a week of medics, revelations and decisions. But first, what has Leaf been up to? Well, apart from calling me nasty names and generally assassinating my character, he’s hidden more stuff – must I clear the house? Another two doors have to be locked at night. He gets up before me, having … Continue reading SURRENDER
UNLEARNING
It has become very clear to me that Leaf is in a process of unlearning. It’s as though swathes of basic information are being deleted from his brain. This is happening in a variety of ways. It’s strange and disquieting to witness his inability to decode correctly the information he’s receiving into a coherent environment. Rationality no longer … Continue reading UNLEARNING
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