As we know, being a carer for someone living with AD, can be absolutely exhausting. For me, the physical side is taken care of but the emotional roller-coaster is relentless. These last few days, I’ve been feeling numb. Maybe one of the reasons numbness was created was to help us process emotion at a deeper level. To keep thought … Continue reading WHEN FATE TAKES OVER
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‘D’ DAY ONE
Here we are, almost at the end of January already and next week is our personal ‘D’ Day. Well, one of several, possibly. We’ll see. Last Monday’s visit didn’t get off to a good start. Leaf was led in stooped and sobbing. Tearlessly sobbing. I took his hands – the nurse didn’t stop me – and tried to get him … Continue reading ‘D’ DAY ONE
DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
Here we are into January, for many of us, the most depressing month of the year, when Spring and Summer seem so far away and it’s difficult to summon up the energy to get all those ‘need to’ jobs done and out of the way. For the most part, I’m a reasonably active person – not … Continue reading DISPELLING THE JANUARY BLUES
I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
Just back from an invigorating walk with Monty. Thick snow is draped across the countryside and that matt grey sky that means more could be on its way, almost blended with the fields on the horizon. Actually it was lovely, so quiet and still. As soon as it felt safe, I left Monty off the lead and he … Continue reading I CAN FEEL IT COMING …
A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
Over Christmas, I was unable to see Leaf due, presumably, to skeleton staffing. It’s likely the patients in the dementia wing wouldn’t even notice anyway. They’re probably unaware of the time of year despite the Christmas decorations which were in evidence but out of reach. Leaf is one of many who tend to ‘pick’ at things, pull … Continue reading A TRAGIC END AND HOPE FOR THE FUTURE
LOOKING AHEAD
Christmas came and went, in a flash like it usually does. I was lucky to have invites from neighbours which lifted my spirits no end. I’m not a great fan of Christmas but am very aware of the pains of separation from family which so many others will be feeling too. ALMOST! I saw Leaf last tuesday. He … Continue reading LOOKING AHEAD
HUMILIATION
I’m finding writing my DOODAH posts very difficult in the current climate. My blog is about dementia not the virus, but the two have become entwined. Covid has invaded our lives just as it’s invaded the majority of lives across the planet. AT THE END OF THE YEAR We all have our opinions on the situation … Continue reading HUMILIATION
NOT EVERYONE IS CENSORED
This week I’m looking forward and gathering my energies for what could be a bit of a struggle. I wrote to the gerontologist to chase up my appointment with the urologist but was informed that I wouldn’t be able to see him/her until the end of January at the earliest! No surprise really – I guess … Continue reading NOT EVERYONE IS CENSORED
HAVING A FIT
Another development and not one I could have anticipated. On Monday, Leaf had an epileptic fit. It exhausted him, as they naturally do but he was apparently unaware and has since been fine. Nine weeks ago (yes, he’s been in the hospital that long), when I came to visit, two days after his arrival, he was nowhere … Continue reading HAVING A FIT
THAT BIG RESPONSIBILITY
I find myself, not for the first time, shouldering a huge responsibility. I have to make Leaf’s decisions for him. Thank goodness he and I have never shied away from uncomfortable life truths, particularly that we all have to die. Obvious, I know, but it’s surprising how many people act as though they’re immortal, as if, somehow, it … Continue reading THAT BIG RESPONSIBILITY
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