I CAN FEEL IT COMING …

Just back from an invigorating walk with Monty.  Thick snow is draped across the countryside and that matt grey sky that means more could be on its way, almost blended with the fields on the horizon.  Actually it was lovely, so quiet and still.  As soon as it felt safe, I left Monty off the lead and he sped away into the distance.  His energy level is phenominal – he’s like a young gazelle. Beautiful. On Tuesday, he outran his friend Foxy and had to be put back on the lead for being a bore! 

It’s been a strange but memorable week starting with my visit to see Leaf on Monday.  He appeared, minus glasses again, in someone else’s pyjamas and bare-footed.  He was pleased to see me and, as soon as we were alone, I took off my mask and gave him a huge hug.  It seems the nurses are getting fed up with surveillance duty – thank goodness. Before Leaf launched into one of his gobbledegook sessions, I took his hands and asked him to look me in the eye for a moment.  I went through the coming-home scenario and asked, for the nth time, if that’s what he wants.  ‘Yes, of course it is,’ he said.  Then I told him that his comfort and happiness is priority and would remain so.  If he doesn’t settle back with me, then we will have to think again but I believe that’s mainly down to me.  I keep getting ideas of how well we can make that work.  It will be a huge challenge, but then AD is exactly that, for carer and patient alike.  

We had coffee and biscuits and looked at the Giles album again.  Our half hour was over very fast and I noticed snow had begun to fall.  Whoops!  Lannemezan is up on the plain and I had to go pick up some results of an echography I’d had earlier.  Apparently my swollen ankle is just that with nothing untoward showing up.  I think it’s because of the plantar which, incidentally, is getting better.  So good news there.

Before I left, I popped in on Caroline, the Assistante Sociale. She asked how I am. I said okay except that half an hour is cruelly short. She agreed and told me how all the staff are thoroughly fed up with the restrictions – ‘We were always such a happy family, but that’s changed now.’ She’s clearly sad, as I imagine they all must be.

On to Wednesday when I spent hours watching events in Washington, on independent media, of course.  It was pretty extraordinary to listen to Trump – the most character-assassinated leader of recent times – go through the figures for voting fraud state by state.  All is backed up by evidence.  I knew this from watching a documentary tracing it all to the CCP, via Italy and Canada (foreign interference in an election – not on).  The two short videos of Trump reacting to the penetration of the Capital building were absolutely appropriate.  Neither is accessible on MSM it seems.  Oh well, no surprise there.  The actual break-in was well-covered on several videos and what happened is clear.  How it was interpreted was according to the stance of those covering the story.  As usual.  What will happen next could be surprising.  We wait and see.  

Wonderful friends, Kris and Steve came to lunch on Thursday and were a fantastic tonic.  We’re totally in tune – such a great way to be. An opportunity to discuss what matters with open minds and hearts.

On from all the excitement to a lovely day with my friend Gin, Witty and Coco.  Witty was once our dog and we had to re-home her after an incident with next door’s chickens.  We were blessed to find Gin who is a marvellous second mum to her.  It was great to see this most beautiful dog, black, sleek and with such soulful eyes.  She was clearly very happy to see me and I her.  Gin is now a great friend, kindred spirit – honorary daughter!!!  Another precious person who sings from the same song sheet, (though far more tunefully than I can!)

Tomorrow I’m due to go see Leaf but it will depend on the weather.  I cannot risk slipping and sliding if the roads ice over.  I really hope the full sun that is forecast will melt the snow, mind you -4 to -6 degrees C won’t be fun.  Thank goodness I put up the ‘double-glazing’ plastic sheeting on the conservatory windows.  Have to protect my indoor plants.  

To sign off, I have to say I’m feeling spiritually uplifted and it’s a huge relief. Thanks, no doubt, to Kris, Steve, Gin and Witty and, of course, that big hug with Leaf.  They lifted me out of what could have been a week of doldrums. When I watched a road movie last night, the background track of Phil Collins ‘I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh Lord’, (enjoy!) brought tears to my eyes.  I know some readers will think I’m bonkers, nothing new about that, but others will know exactly what I mean and how a upsurge of spiritual energy can bring so much peace.